The Darker Space
After a couple of weeks at home, still masking my depression, I continued the journaling I started in Oklahoma. It helped. There was a release I felt by getting the words out of my mind and on to a piece of paper. After several days of writing, I went back and read my earlier entries. I was astounded by the words written in front me – and in my own handwriting no less! I couldn’t believe it, I was writing about suicide. It scared me. It scared me enough to think if I didn’t do something about how I was feeling right in that moment, I might find myself going into that darker space of what I now know was a stretch of caregiver depression.
Looking For Help
Immediately I got online and looked up help for caregivers. I found the National Alliance for Caregivers and the Family Caregiver Alliance. I started to cry but this time I was crying out of pure joy! Everything I read validated my experience. It was the first time in 5 months I didn’t feel like it was my fault for feeling the way I felt. It was the first time someone said anything to the effect of, “every day caregiving is hard and it involves more than anyone knows unless they have been there themselves.”
I was ready to make another list.
- Research online support groups
- Join and participate in at least one online support group
- Tell my husband exactly what has been going on
- Continue journaling
- Share my story.
- Explore ways to become involved in making a positive difference in the lives of other family caregivers.
And So It Was Born
And so was born Every Day Caregivers, where we fundamentally believe in the strength, courage, and perseverance found in each and every family caregiver.
At Every Day Caregivers, we will strive to build a community that stands beside those who take on this massive responsibility. Over time, we will strive to create products and services to support the emotional, social, physical and financial needs of every day caregivers. We will strive to serve those who so willingly give of themselves every day.
Every. Single. Day.
Because no one should have to go through the caregiving experience alone.